well kiddies..got my pics back from hot import nights. a lot of them came out really well (sorry guys..no model pics for you. I was too busy looking at cars..) they're really sweet. I got pics of a ferrari, porsche 911 turbo, supra, skyline r32, an SI, some really sweet lookin FD's, and some others. I'll post if them if anybody wants to see. if not then I won't bother scanning them all.

~over 'n' outz

ok ok...so I lied.. who cares...

Well anyway..yesterday..very bad. got yelled out for verbally abusing a guy who was SEXUALLY HARRASSING ME with his dirty mouth and the undressing me of his eyes. I mean jeez..bite my head off for protecting my self-esteem. damn..on a brighter note I finally got the chance to develop the pictures from HIN in Dallas from Aug. 2nd. yeah..it was awhile back. last night I finally found out how stupid 2fast 2furious was. sure..it looks like the cars are going so super fast..but they're NOT!!..they barely go over 110mph..then shoot the spray...and omg...WHOA! 120mph!? damn..*sarcasm* that is so super fast.. but who cares..Paul Walker's hot and I laughed every time he said "cuz" and "man" now..what girl WOULDN'T want a man with drivin skillz and a hot car..(now..this is the character Brian..not Paul [unless he has skillz and a hot car too..lol even better ]) but you can't have everything and beggars can't be choosers..sad but true..but it'd just be nice to have a friend or someone to talk to (other than my own brother) about cars..most of my friends know NOTHING about cars except for the fact that they're used to get you from one place to another. Killeen sucks in general..I need to move to Japan or Austin...  somewhere where it's upbeat..and not boring like the people here..man..this sucks.

and to maKe the situatIon worse..I neeD new supplies for cOmmissions..or I don't get paId. thank god ChristmaS is coming up (even though I don't celebrate the whole purpose of christmas..'cuz I'm Buddhist) I use the opportunity to give and get. lol messed up? I don't think so..as long as I give something baCk right? yeah..I just hOpe I get sOmething usefuL and nothing crap like jewelry or anything..(god..I have enough jewelry) lol there is one present I look forward to. From Joni. she's giving me a jumbo sized bag of gummy bears, a pack of 50 blank cds, and a  naked guy calendar!  haha..man..lol now she's a true friend. she also shares my views about Paul Walker. mhmm..it's all good. it's allllll goood....

~ k-chan, over 'n' outz

hurray for subliminal messages!

yeah..decided to write in this stupid thing again. why? well because I feel like I can't tell anybody anything anymore. If I write it here, then people who want to know what I go through can read it and those who don't..well they can go away. plus I don't feel like having people bitch at me because they think my problems are stupid ONLY because they've never had my problems before. and it's kinda stupid to have someone who has no experience whatsoever tell you what to do. anyway at least I can feel like I'm talking to someone when I'm really not...so what you ppl think doesn't matter..to me at least.

back on track. a lot of stuff has happened between now and the last time I've posted (which may have been somewhere in like..July?) school's fine..just like middle school only you can't walk through the halls without brushing up against somebody at least once between each period..Mom's still a bitch..and Joe's still a drama queen. I got a bf (whom I love very much..) yay me.. but a long with him came a load of issues (bitchy mom, drama queen brother complaining about me growing up..)

I sound really nonchalant..I guess it's because I'm sicker than a dog right now. I feel like I'm gonna die at any minute. I should be laying down but I don't wanna end up falling asleep like I did last night. felt like the whole world went on without me (it prolly did..) my two best friends are growing apart from me..by next year I doubt we'll even speak to each other anymore...but it's not like I haven't dealt with this before. I'm still pretty damn chipper about it. Pat's helping me through a lot lately and I feel like I owe him my life or something..either that or I'm being too damn grateful..I don't care. I'm feeling really bitchy lately and I'm trying my hardest not to. I just want everyone to get off my ass and leave me alone for a few days. Me being deprived from my needs and wants isn't helping much either.

I'll end this here for now. maybe I'll add to it later when I'm not so dead.